A Fresh Start

This is not my first attempt at blogging.

I tried my hand at this a few years ago with a blog I called Blue Love Notebook. I created it after my mother passed away. I was very close with her, and although she’d been sick for awhile, nothing could have prepared me for the emptiness I felt without her. Talking about her was painful but writing about her was cathartic, and so the blog was helpful.

For awhile.

Although I never expected it to happen, my life eventually stopped centering around the loss of my mom. As I came to terms with the new normal of my life, I felt less and less compelled to work through my feelings in print. However, I really felt like I’d created BLN to write about her… it felt strange to try and write about anything else there.

Hence – this blog. After losing my mom, I believed that I’d already lived out my happiest day – that no future day could ever make me the happiest because she wouldn’t be there. And even though I feel a little twinge of guilt as I type this, I have to admit I was wrong. When I see my husband and daughter playing together in the house we’ve made a home, I know it. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. I’m so lucky, and now it’s time to focus on that. There will still be sad posts here from time to time because that’s life. But with so many rich blessings, I’d be a fool not to capture this time however I can.

I’ve taken thousands of photos in the last year.

Time for thousands of words.